There was less tears,
as the stories were being told.
I wasn’t choked by my own emotions,
as the flashbacks flooded my mind.
What is happening?
Could it be that I was suppressing my tears, my own emotions?
Could it be that I didn’t want to appear to be vulnerable?
Could it be that I had somehow come to terms with the incident?
Could it be that I had sorted out my own emotions unknowingly?
Or could it be the reason I gave then,
that I am desensitized by them, whatever that is happening
for my life have been filled with too many episodes of..
judgements, prejudices & discriminations from others,
and more importantly, myself.
Why did my eyes still become watery then?
Shouldn’t I be unaffected?
Could I be breaking down my own defensive wall?
I still have no answers.