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The feeling is back
Familiar yet daunting
Living by the day
Without an end in sight

Every breath is heavy
Every step is a struggle
Every thought is grim
Every day is a chore

I want to run away
from everything and anything

But I realise I cannot
Something is holding me back

I am holding myself back
It has always been me all along

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Many times, I doubt my existence
The necessity and the meaning
I longed for an explanation
to uncover the truth

Many times, I wish I never exist
Free from burden and worries
The overbearing reality
to just nothing at all

Many times, I wish everything ends
The world continues spinning
Nothing is affected at all
Just a cease of my existence

A wishful thinking deep within
But as truthfully as it can be
Without meanings or longings

Free

When I read something about burden
My burdened heart ache
When I read something about hope
My hopeless soul wept
When I read something about silence
My silent voice whimpered

The mind cannot decide
Who needed help more
Because it knows we will not
screaming for help or struggle
We will make it through
the storm and darkness

Burdened and hopeless
We will bear it all silently
Sink deeper and deeper
We will allow ourselves to
Until the day of liberty
Freeing the heart, mind and soul

Sinking

As I sink deeper and deeper
It get more comfortable
Or maybe I am getting used to it
I feel at ease, really

It may seems a little dark here but
The soul can calm down and settle in
The mind can go free
The heart can slow down

Away from the reality and people
I am not hiding myself
I merely allow myself to sink
because I do not care anymore

Heartfelt

It has been weeks
But I can still remember
The little gesture that
Most didn’t notice

You did it anyway
In recognition of my existence
It was not expected of you
But you did

I thank you for that
As this means more than
A ‘Good Job’ or whatnot
Because I felt the sincerity